My Spiritual Journey Part I “The Prodigal Daughter”

21 “The son said to him, ‘Father, I have sinned against heaven and against you. I am no longer worthy to be called your son.’

31 “‘My son,’ the father said, ‘you are always with me, and everything I have is yours. 32 But we had to celebrate and be glad, because this brother of yours was dead and is alive again; he was lost and is found.’”

~Luke 15:11-32

I grew up my teenage years with a love for Christ. As I grew older and had children I started walking away till ultimately became a jehovah’s witness. Eventually I walked away from that as well. My marriage was failing and my husband was becoming increasingly abusive. On February 11,2010 I fought back and spent 15 days in jail. I pled with the god I was taught to trust in as a jehovah’s witness. I struggled for the rest of 2010 trying to make a fresh start for myself all the while I was living an extremely sinful life. I tried going back to the most current religion I was practicing but only felt rejection and became extremely selfish.thCA3XM87U

In November 2010 I made a decision to return to my home church. The one that I had the most spiritual growth at as a teenager. I became a Sunday Christian. I led a double life. I carried a very selfish attitude. It was God give me this, God I want that, give me , give me, give me and I want it all NOW!!!On January 20,2011 I had a probation review hearing. At that hearing it was determined that I had been in violation of my probation and would have a hearing regarding this matter on February 22,2011. I prayed in that 34 days. I prayed and studied and read a lot of spiritual books. My main prayer was please God help me put this all behind me. I started realizing that the key ingredient in my life that I lacked was Faith. On my court date I went to my hearing expecting God to perform miracles. I wanted out of jail and everything to do with my case. The ultimate outcome was I was released that day for 22 days but I had to turn myself back in on March 15th for a 86 day sentence. I would have to serve out my time on the case so I could put it behind me. While I was out I continued the healthy habits I had begun while I was in. I prayed to not go back to the old lifestyle that had spiritually harmed me. However, once again I fell prey the selfish attitude of I know my plan for my life is better than God’s plan for my life. I just knew I would not have to serve 86 days in jail. God declared “It’s my will, not your will!” At my surrender hearing I was sentenced to the full 86 days. I was not angry, by that time I had finally realized God’s will is more important than my will. God ultimately has a plan for my life and I have seen many blessings out of His will. I have a great reliance on the Almighty to guide my life on a daily basis. He gets me through the days in which I may be saddened, scared, worried, or weak. He helps me overcome my sin and lifts the burdens off my shoulders. He has put people in place to assist in my spiritual growth. I have determined just as God has fulfilled His promises to me, I want to keep my promises to Him. I will forever call jail a spiritual retreat in which I have had a great spiritual awakening. We all went to jail for different reasons but like a Pastor I met while in there had said ” God went through this much trouble to get all of our attention.” These words still stick with me today. I believe God allowed me to get arrested back in 2010 to get my attention. God seems to be in jail more so than anywhere else but that is a personal opinion because God is really everywhere. It’s jail where the majority of worldly problems are not allowed.

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